Monday, January 22, 2007 ; 10:46 PM
funny how two drops of tears manage to cure it all.
i had a hard day today.
a sucky time table, no free periods, killer pe, nerve-wrecking dance and the non-stop gruelling of it all.
running from 5th level maths lessons to lit room, running from lit room to sports comm, plus 2.1 km of pe running, i'm not complaining.
but the unfathomable mind of the Z always manages to kill me.
the uncertainty of being chosen because he didn't clearly announce to settle the doubts of our place in syf. so when most of them were being blocked, leaving some of us alone till the end of class was scary and miserable. was consoling and trying to make her see the brighter side of the situation didn't help to make myself feel better. instead, it increased the doubts i have on myself and the fear of all the hardwork and effort put in for the past 3 months ending up to nothing. but eventually he sort of said that auditions weren't necessary for the year 2s which in other words, means that all of us are in. receiving this piece of indirect good news after having created such emotional turmoil under such circumstances didn't make me feel happy at all.
and i went home and started a tiny negative chained reaction.
and i asked myself why especially since it was mummy's birthday and through it all that i finally got into syf.
i guess the pressure built up and i've been taking it on.
funny how two drops of tears manage to cure it all.
i have no idea why i'm speaking/typing like that.
gosh i hate mondays.
